Physically I didn't feel too bad this week. I rode a few horses, walked the dog, did some gardening and even fit in a few small workouts. With all of the anger building up I needed an outlet - hence the mini workouts. I haven't had much energy for actual workouts, it's mainly been riding and walking Harlow, but I've always used working out as an outlet for my hothead tendencies, so when I was feeling so frustrated, working out was the only thing I could think of to help work through it.
My plan for today to take the bulk of it to myself. I don't think I am going to be the most pleasant person to be with today and I need time to recharge on my own. I am going to get as much of my life in order as I can. Clean up the apartment, plan out my week, etc. My goal is to feel as in control over the things I can control so I can stop obsessing over the things that I cannot. It's a technic I was taught awhile ago while I was working through my past struggles with eating disorders. Letting go of the things I can't control and focusing on the things that I can: a clean apartment, an organized week, maybe a mini workout, etc. They don't have to be big things, just things that I can control the outcome of. I am also going to take a page from my dog and the horses I work with to take one step at a time. Focus on what is happening right now, at the moment and try to forget about the not so fun things to come.