|Throwback to beautiful Bowen Island.|
See where I'm going with this?
I was looking through some pictures today and realized how good I looked a few years ago (yeah, yeah - I look wonderful now - thank you). I was strong and rested and all fresh- faced. It got me thinking that maybe it is time for dialysis (I already knew that, but now I KNOW that. I know my doctor is on top of things and I trust him fully, it just takes me a little longer to come to the same conclusion myself). With dialysis helping my system function, I'm hoping to be able to do a bit more of what I used to be able to do. I'm still able to do a lot, sometimes more than most people without kidney issues, but I used to be able to do more and I looked good doing it (wink-wink).
I've also started to come to a better mental place with the idea of a fistula and all of it's grossness. I don't gag quite as much as I did previously. I had the idea that I was going to need to get more long sleeve shirts to cover my arm. I've recently decided that I do not need to cover my arm to make it more comfortable for other people - they can deal. I've decided to just go ahead and rock it. There is a good chance I am going to be on dialysis for awhile and I am not going to keep my arms covered for the next however many years.
This is my reality and I am going to rock it.